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Through nature, wildlife and art, I'm learning acceptance and self-love. This border reflects that healing journey. Living with complex PTSD and childhood trauma has had and continues to have a profound impact on my life. It is something I have denied, ignored and felt shame for living with, only to realise years later that the only way to heal is to accept that it is a part of who I am. My journey has only really began but it is a personal journey of self-reflection and healing through my love of nature, wildlife and art. I am learning to love myself, even the parts that are messy and that I use to believe were broken. The Beautiful Border is a reflection of this journey. Displayed At ![](https://cdn.gardensdb.com/shows/bbc-gardeners-world-spring-fair-2026/logo.webp) [BBC Gardeners' World Spring Fair 2026](https://gardensdb.com/shows/bbc-gardeners-world-spring-fair-2026) Awards ![](https://cdn.gardensdb.com/awards/bbc-gardeners-world-live-gold/icon.webp) Gold Award BBC Gardeners World Live 360° Photo Loading panorama... Unable to load panorama. Click and drag to look around. Scroll to zoom. Tap and drag to look around. Pinch to zoom. 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